Beautiful Disaster.

YMonday, October 31, 2005
why cant you just fathom the fact that i need you? wat abt my hurt my tears and my depression? cant u tell.? wat makes u so NUMB? why does it seem that im all alone now? that u have ur frens and i dun have mine..to who can i confide in now?

please StOP makin me worry..pleasee stop hurtin urself.
please stop hurting me.
i've been hurt enuf.

shedding tears every nite have become too exhausting fer me.
my mind is slowly dying cuz i've been thinking too much.
please stop makin me feel useless in ur life.

i cant be happy if ur not happy.no matter wat i try to do.
we would usually pull throughh our problems together..wat's happened now?

i reallly need you now.
i dun want anymore sadness.not anymore.
not from you.

i cant face our parents alone.
i cant face the family alone.
i cant live tis life alone.
so please stop wanting to end your life.
cuz then, my life will be meaningless.
bcoz ur the reason y im still here..in tis family..

please..stop hurtin urself.
cuz ur hurtin me too.
_callous_ was here with you at 12:54 AM .

Emylin
The Ride

this life is all about loving and losing. sacrificing and hurting.
being dissappointed in just about anything including urself.

this is life in my eyes.

- an unbearable excruciating painful hurt and experience that kills.
life in living is like death in dying.
where u live with a purpose and u die with a cause
all of which reasons hurt
and none of which will give u the happiness that u deserve.

yes i am fickle and yes i am a hardcore depressed chic.
but no.im no bimbo cuz i apparently make use of my brain cells 3/4 of my waking hour.
dun mess with me.